“You are so strong…” friends would often say.
And I sigh because I am not always that strong.
The truth is I am only human.
There are moments when the world’s weight feels too much to bear, and I want to breathe without feeling suffocating.
There are times when I bawled my eyes out behind closed doors
Having to stretch yourself out to make sure your son feels loved, the bills are paid, his school lunches are paid off, and discipline him when needed.
Sometimes it takes a toll on me.
And I just wanted to cry it out.
So no, I am not always that strong.
This journey hasn’t been easy.
You Are Enough!
There are moments when I feel like I am running on empty. Even with his tremendous support and love, I still have bad days. Days where I just told myself, “This too shall pass….”
There are days when exhaustion gets the best of me, and I barely have the energy to keep up with my son.
“Just roll with the punches and do the best that you can…” Sometimes I have to pep talk myself that way when things get too much to handle, when frustration leaves me in tears wanting to throw my hands up in the air and shout profanities.
Yet, there are still moments when I doubt myself if I am a good enough mother if I do enough.
And when those doubts creep in, I try to inhale…deep breath…inhale…exhale…
“Yes, you are good enough!”
“Yes, you do your best; that alone is enough!”
“Yes, your son loves you despite all of your shortcomings!”
How do you handle your bad days if you are a single mom? Share away.